i'm angry.
but i hate to voice out my anger.
i'm sad.
but i hate to cry out loud.
all i can do is spit it out here.
the only place where i can voice out,
the only place where i can cry out loud,
and cruse like hell.

i'm not writing for people to know how do i feel.
i'm not writing to get attention.
i am writing to release stress and anger.
i am writing to express my joy and happiness.

what makes me angry today?
first of all, a best friend of mine got dump by a stupid guy.
second, i hate people controlling me. i know what i am doing.

i havent cry for a very long time.
the last time i cried out was when my dog died.
rocky.
the news was very sudden for me.
nope, i'm not crying now.
just tears rolling down.
not crying.

i deserve what i have.
i do.
i am not proud of myself.
nope, I'm not.
i want to be successful.
its a long and hard way.
but i want to reach it.
i will work hard to achieve it.
and i will always remind myself.
that laziness is a killer.
new year is near.
i hope its a new beginning for me.
and for everyone.
from tmr onwards.
i will be hard working.
ganbate!
nothing can stop you if you really want to do it.


i love my blog.
i feel better now.
good night.
sleep tight.
and Merry Christmas.