i woke up this morning,
with my lights still on,
i try to stay awake till late,
but i think i was too tired,
i didn't realize i fell asleep.
i had a very weird feeling when i wake up,
i feel like i am living in a very hollow world
a very hollow and lonely world.

then i sat up, and think.
maybe i have experienced enough,
that now i want to go back to where i came from.
i am a positive thinker. or i used to be one.
but yet sometimes,
somethings really hit your hard,
that you will somehow turn into a negative thinker,
unconsciously.

i asked my friend, what is she looking forward to?
she said. nothing. then i said to myself, there must be something i would be looking forward to.
then i asked myself what am i looking forward to?
i said immediately. My family and friends.

then i asked myself again.
after you graduate, what are you looking forward to?
i thought for a while.
then i answered myself, again.
job, a new life. and most of all, leaving this isolated city.

how about friends? i asked myself.
i answered, i can have a lot of friends,
but the most important thing is how to maintain friendships.
i am not a good maintainer.
but i will try to learn how to me one.