4 more hours, and its a brand new year.
and here i am celebrating with pizza and coke zero!
hurray!
all alone this new year eve! how exciting!
wuuu huuuuu!
wow, can't wait!
happy new year everyone.
happy new year to me!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
choices
still awake right now, although i know i have to wake up very early tomorrow morning.
maybe just 2 hours sleep is enough.
i choose to stay awake and do stuffs.
such as?
such as, reading people's blog,
thinking of the choices they had made,
surfing the net,
watching funny videos on youtube,
chatting with friends,
roaming around in friendster and facebook.
or i call it, "friendstering and facebooking".
the clock is still ticking,
but i am not sleeping.
haha, and i heard the guy living opposite me coughing.
maybe its time for him to wake up.
but then i am still a wake.
why am i still awake?
cause i was thinking, thinking about the choices that i had made.
think about it, i really made some very wrong choices, and some right choices.
and then i think why people can easily make a decision.
for example,
you love that person very much,
but you choose to break up with them because of some situation,
then you get sad,
and you made the person more sad,
and then suddenly the whole world is sad because the ones that love you and that person feels bad for you and the person.
why do human make things so complicated?
why can't we live a simple yet happy life?
rather than a complicated and sad life?
why earn so much money when you don't have happiness?
why live in a place where loneliness is all around you?
why live in such expensive studio apartment when you are not rich?
can money really buy friendship and happiness?
this few questions made me awake till now.
and i still cant find the answer.
and the thing that saddens me is,
my piggy bank is getting slimmer,
lost a lot of weight.
"we're going downnn, reruriruround, and sugar we're going down swinging".
i am bad at remembering lyrics.
and i don;t bother to find the right lyrics,
i like singing that way.
another sleepless night.
going to get fucked when i go back to malaysia.
cause i have to wake up early.
hate it hate it hate it.
happy boxing day and happy new year 2008,
that is in case i won't write in these few days,
which i think its impossible cause i am jobless, and have nothing to do.
maybe just 2 hours sleep is enough.
i choose to stay awake and do stuffs.
such as?
such as, reading people's blog,
thinking of the choices they had made,
surfing the net,
watching funny videos on youtube,
chatting with friends,
roaming around in friendster and facebook.
or i call it, "friendstering and facebooking".
the clock is still ticking,
but i am not sleeping.
haha, and i heard the guy living opposite me coughing.
maybe its time for him to wake up.
but then i am still a wake.
why am i still awake?
cause i was thinking, thinking about the choices that i had made.
think about it, i really made some very wrong choices, and some right choices.
and then i think why people can easily make a decision.
for example,
you love that person very much,
but you choose to break up with them because of some situation,
then you get sad,
and you made the person more sad,
and then suddenly the whole world is sad because the ones that love you and that person feels bad for you and the person.
why do human make things so complicated?
why can't we live a simple yet happy life?
rather than a complicated and sad life?
why earn so much money when you don't have happiness?
why live in a place where loneliness is all around you?
why live in such expensive studio apartment when you are not rich?
can money really buy friendship and happiness?
this few questions made me awake till now.
and i still cant find the answer.
and the thing that saddens me is,
my piggy bank is getting slimmer,
lost a lot of weight.
"we're going downnn, reruriruround, and sugar we're going down swinging".
i am bad at remembering lyrics.
and i don;t bother to find the right lyrics,
i like singing that way.
another sleepless night.
going to get fucked when i go back to malaysia.
cause i have to wake up early.
hate it hate it hate it.
happy boxing day and happy new year 2008,
that is in case i won't write in these few days,
which i think its impossible cause i am jobless, and have nothing to do.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
merry christmas!
i would to wish myself merry Christmas,
and to my family and friends,
and to everyone.
and to my family and friends,
and to everyone.
Monday, December 24, 2007
i still like this template.
i like sticking with things that i like.
i think i'll change it when i really find something i really like.
not just something i like.
or when someday i get bored of it.
which i think i wont.
cause i just love those... those balls.
i'm not sure what creature are those.
just a last complain before Christmas ok?
life has been really lonely here in perth.
i miss them so much.
i really really, sincerely miss them.
just that.
do they miss me.
well,
i'm pretty sure they do.
i like sticking with things that i like.
i think i'll change it when i really find something i really like.
not just something i like.
or when someday i get bored of it.
which i think i wont.
cause i just love those... those balls.
i'm not sure what creature are those.
just a last complain before Christmas ok?
life has been really lonely here in perth.
i miss them so much.
i really really, sincerely miss them.
just that.
do they miss me.
well,
i'm pretty sure they do.
i'm angry.
but i hate to voice out my anger.
i'm sad.
but i hate to cry out loud.
all i can do is spit it out here.
the only place where i can voice out,
the only place where i can cry out loud,
and cruse like hell.
i'm not writing for people to know how do i feel.
i'm not writing to get attention.
i am writing to release stress and anger.
i am writing to express my joy and happiness.
what makes me angry today?
first of all, a best friend of mine got dump by a stupid guy.
second, i hate people controlling me. i know what i am doing.
i havent cry for a very long time.
the last time i cried out was when my dog died.
rocky.
the news was very sudden for me.
nope, i'm not crying now.
just tears rolling down.
not crying.
i deserve what i have.
i do.
i am not proud of myself.
nope, I'm not.
i want to be successful.
its a long and hard way.
but i want to reach it.
i will work hard to achieve it.
and i will always remind myself.
that laziness is a killer.
new year is near.
i hope its a new beginning for me.
and for everyone.
from tmr onwards.
i will be hard working.
ganbate!
nothing can stop you if you really want to do it.
i love my blog.
i feel better now.
good night.
sleep tight.
and Merry Christmas.
but i hate to voice out my anger.
i'm sad.
but i hate to cry out loud.
all i can do is spit it out here.
the only place where i can voice out,
the only place where i can cry out loud,
and cruse like hell.
i'm not writing for people to know how do i feel.
i'm not writing to get attention.
i am writing to release stress and anger.
i am writing to express my joy and happiness.
what makes me angry today?
first of all, a best friend of mine got dump by a stupid guy.
second, i hate people controlling me. i know what i am doing.
i havent cry for a very long time.
the last time i cried out was when my dog died.
rocky.
the news was very sudden for me.
nope, i'm not crying now.
just tears rolling down.
not crying.
i deserve what i have.
i do.
i am not proud of myself.
nope, I'm not.
i want to be successful.
its a long and hard way.
but i want to reach it.
i will work hard to achieve it.
and i will always remind myself.
that laziness is a killer.
new year is near.
i hope its a new beginning for me.
and for everyone.
from tmr onwards.
i will be hard working.
ganbate!
nothing can stop you if you really want to do it.
i love my blog.
i feel better now.
good night.
sleep tight.
and Merry Christmas.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
i woke up this morning,
with my lights still on,
i try to stay awake till late,
but i think i was too tired,
i didn't realize i fell asleep.
i had a very weird feeling when i wake up,
i feel like i am living in a very hollow world
a very hollow and lonely world.
then i sat up, and think.
maybe i have experienced enough,
that now i want to go back to where i came from.
i am a positive thinker. or i used to be one.
but yet sometimes,
somethings really hit your hard,
that you will somehow turn into a negative thinker,
unconsciously.
i asked my friend, what is she looking forward to?
she said. nothing. then i said to myself, there must be something i would be looking forward to.
then i asked myself what am i looking forward to?
i said immediately. My family and friends.
then i asked myself again.
after you graduate, what are you looking forward to?
i thought for a while.
then i answered myself, again.
job, a new life. and most of all, leaving this isolated city.
how about friends? i asked myself.
i answered, i can have a lot of friends,
but the most important thing is how to maintain friendships.
i am not a good maintainer.
but i will try to learn how to me one.
with my lights still on,
i try to stay awake till late,
but i think i was too tired,
i didn't realize i fell asleep.
i had a very weird feeling when i wake up,
i feel like i am living in a very hollow world
a very hollow and lonely world.
then i sat up, and think.
maybe i have experienced enough,
that now i want to go back to where i came from.
i am a positive thinker. or i used to be one.
but yet sometimes,
somethings really hit your hard,
that you will somehow turn into a negative thinker,
unconsciously.
i asked my friend, what is she looking forward to?
she said. nothing. then i said to myself, there must be something i would be looking forward to.
then i asked myself what am i looking forward to?
i said immediately. My family and friends.
then i asked myself again.
after you graduate, what are you looking forward to?
i thought for a while.
then i answered myself, again.
job, a new life. and most of all, leaving this isolated city.
how about friends? i asked myself.
i answered, i can have a lot of friends,
but the most important thing is how to maintain friendships.
i am not a good maintainer.
but i will try to learn how to me one.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Saturday, December 15, 2007
life is so fucking unfair
people work like a ant,
and beg like a dog just to get a fucking opportunity.
but some people just have all the luck in the world,
wondering nothing and got that opportunity.
that is so fucking unfair.
so fucking, fucking unfair!
say i am jealous or whatever!
i still think its fucking unfair.
what is fair is this world?!!!!
when life is so unfair!!
so fucking unfair!
people work like a ant,
and beg like a dog just to get a fucking opportunity.
but some people just have all the luck in the world,
wondering nothing and got that opportunity.
that is so fucking unfair.
so fucking, fucking unfair!
say i am jealous or whatever!
i still think its fucking unfair.
what is fair is this world?!!!!
when life is so unfair!!
so fucking unfair!
i'm back from my first day of work?
how was it?
tired, but good.
but will i work again there?
that is if they give me functions to do,
i will.
i would.
i definitely want to!
but my arms are crazily soar.
and my back is soar like hell.
and my name to the day is VOOH.
funny right?
yes, funny
saw the crazy lion lying crazily today.
haha, but its very cute.
i took the opportunity to serve inside the house and look at it.
cute lion!
how was it?
tired, but good.
but will i work again there?
that is if they give me functions to do,
i will.
i would.
i definitely want to!
but my arms are crazily soar.
and my back is soar like hell.
and my name to the day is VOOH.
funny right?
yes, funny
saw the crazy lion lying crazily today.
haha, but its very cute.
i took the opportunity to serve inside the house and look at it.
cute lion!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
i lost hope but i haven't give up!
I'll be back again for revenge!
you gave me hope,
and took it away!
even though i lost my hope,
i still haven't give up.
cause i have time.
and when i come back,
you'll see! you'll see...
i spend the whole crazy night in the freaking casino with jennifer,
we were dog tired when we were on our way on this morning.
a crazy night to remember,
for the rest of our lives.
we had fun though,
and i kept stopping jennifer for being greedy!
thats all thats all
and i am going home soon.
can't wait to go home to taste good food
and meet my family and friends!
woooohoooo
fuck the job in spotless.
they are so.. spotless.
no one can spot them.
cause they are spotless.
you gave me hope,
and took it away!
even though i lost my hope,
i still haven't give up.
cause i have time.
and when i come back,
you'll see! you'll see...
i spend the whole crazy night in the freaking casino with jennifer,
we were dog tired when we were on our way on this morning.
a crazy night to remember,
for the rest of our lives.
we had fun though,
and i kept stopping jennifer for being greedy!
thats all thats all
and i am going home soon.
can't wait to go home to taste good food
and meet my family and friends!
woooohoooo
fuck the job in spotless.
they are so.. spotless.
no one can spot them.
cause they are spotless.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Thursday, December 6, 2007
feel like crap
what goes around, comes around.
seriously,
i bought a new pair glasses,
i stick with the new pair glasses,
at first i did switch glasses every once a while,
but sooner,
and i place the old one a side,
one day the old pair of glasses had a crack,
because i dropped it on the floor,
and didn't pick it up,
one day i couldn't find that pair of old glasses.
i try finding everywhere,
i tried my best,
but the old pair of glasses didn't appear,
i really did appreciate that pair of old glasses,
the times we were together,
that pair of glasses helped me a lot,
we went through ups and downs,
but in the end,
i still lost that pair of old glasses.
seriously,
i bought a new pair glasses,
i stick with the new pair glasses,
at first i did switch glasses every once a while,
but sooner,
and i place the old one a side,
one day the old pair of glasses had a crack,
because i dropped it on the floor,
and didn't pick it up,
one day i couldn't find that pair of old glasses.
i try finding everywhere,
i tried my best,
but the old pair of glasses didn't appear,
i really did appreciate that pair of old glasses,
the times we were together,
that pair of glasses helped me a lot,
we went through ups and downs,
but in the end,
i still lost that pair of old glasses.
it's my fault
i admit,
I'm sorry.
a flower and a pair of glasses made me sad and disappointed,
the story of the flower?
maybe some other day,
when i feel better.
i admit,
I'm sorry.
a flower and a pair of glasses made me sad and disappointed,
the story of the flower?
maybe some other day,
when i feel better.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
“人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺”
突然间我很想用华语来表达我自己。朋友啊，总是来来去去。
好想念好朋友们
因为和他们在一起，很快乐！
可惜，可惜，
可惜每个人走的路，都不一样。
有些在直线，突然要弯右。
有些要弯左。
有些要U-TURN，
在这一路上，
我们碰到很多石头，一起跌倒，然后一起爬起来，
有些朋友路过之后，再也碰不到了。
有些呢，就怎么走到哪里，都碰到。好烦哦。
但是呢，一旦没碰到了之后呢，好想念哦。
人啊，就是一只很不懂得珍惜的动物。
当人学会懂得珍惜的时候， 往往都太迟了。挽救不会了。
也只能够惭愧， 和后悔！
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