i got a job,
woooohooooo!
i met spud in a shop,
wooooohooooooo!
i lost big bucks in the casino!
and it doesn't rhythm does it.
who cares!!!

today is someone's lucky day
and my unlucky day
don't ask me why
i don't want my heart to bleed again.
bloody fool.

when nothing works right,
everything went wrong.

all my dreams are hard to achieve.
am i walking on the right path?
i am so sick of discrimination, and bullying here.
i want to go back where i belong.
somewhere where i have all my confidence in me.

would you rather stay in a beautiful palace with discrimination
or
would you rather stay in a simple little house with happiness?



i have dreams
but do i have the right dreams.
i have made my decisions,
but are my decisions right.

all of a sudden a huge rock knock on my head.
i am awake now.
and worried as well.
am i doing whats best for myself.
or am i running away from everything else.

i realize life is kinda terrifying
especially when your road is getting near to the society.
its really scary.
sometimes it freaks me out.
and my mind won't stop thinking,
"what am i going to do"
until i go into my dreams, where everything will be solve
but once i wake up, everything is unsolved,
but its ok, cause by then i am not so freaked out anymore.

i think, this is part of growing up too.
i am scared of growing up. i really am.
i wish i was always a little kid.
a little naive kid who only knows the beautiful part of this world.

life is short

yes, indeed. you can disappear any moment. who know.
so i tend to try everything.
i tried to sun bath.. to be tan
but i couldn't
i couldn't stand the heat.

maybe some other day.. i'll try again.
gosh i am sweaty.
ciaoz, going to take my shower.
geez.

horrible feeling

i am having a horrible feeling inside me.
i don't know what it is.
maybe something horrible will happen.
or maybe something horrible wont happen because i felt it.
who knows.
still cant find any jobs yet
probably going back to Malaysia earlier
time flies, like a F1 racing car.
phhhhhewwwwrrr~ just a glance.
if you miss it,
you'll have to wait for the next round for that glance again.
5 months gone.
just like that.
what good did i do within this 5 months?
nothing i guess, except spending more money, shopping.
i cant remember how many jobs did i applied.
countless.
the figure is more than my fingers and toes.
that's all i know.
*sigh


By the way.
shud i change my blog's music? any opinion guyz?
cause the song's title is 很难。which means. very difficult.
maybe i shud change it to very easy. keke. just kidding.
no seriously, shud i change it.
hmmm....
*sigh.

dead jelly fish

Jen and i went for a walk yesterday.
we walked to the river side where we discovered a lot of dead Jelly fish there. on the way to the river side, those freaking flies kept following us. the funny thing is that the flies love our face, our lips, our nose, and our ears. i think they want to be eaten. there were many times i nearly ate or breath a fly into my mouth and nose. stupid freaking flies. i will kill all of you. i know why Brisbane has so much frogs now. i want a frog too.

anyways, we picked to sticks to poke those dead jelly fish, to feel how jelly fish really feels like. well, of course it feels like jelly, thats why its call jelly fish. we poked them up and they smell awful and gross. there were slimy liquid flowing out from their body. grossss.

on the way home, we passed by the church again and an old man came out and chat with us. he told us the history about the church. it used to be an boys orphanage, now its a aboriginal college. we wanted to ask about the grave yard( Michael bowman) but he walked away. oh well, next time maybe. oh and the church is not been used anymore. such a pity as it is a very nice church.

we were naughty too, we stole lemons and roses. and the stupid dog kept barking at us. this time we stole 4 lemons, and 10 roses. kekeke.

the true me. or not.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies. You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

well i personally think that some are right, some are not. teeheee. bought 3 pairs of shoes today. and a cheap top. laundry day as well. went to have dimsum with jennifer, jimmy, and irene. after dim sum we went to harbor town to shop shop shop! hehehe.^^

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

new shit, same smell.

i have to make a decision whether to hunt for job or go back to malaysia. i've been hunting jobs for quite long, and when it was finally someone hired me i decided to stick with it. i was happy to get that job as well. today's presentation went well, maybe because i have showned Paul what i had yesterday, yesterday's comment was quite harsh comparing today. anway Paul thinks its better comparing today, he asked me whether i changed anything. well, i did nothing last night, except the calculation of the production cost and media cost.

End of semester. the road of stepping into the society is getting nearer and nearer.
well, i am giving hope on the library job, as well as the 2 restaurants that i had applied this morning. hopefully i get it. its true when you are helpless and depressed, there's only 1 person you can turn to, thats god. i believe god is something to motivates you. when you lost all hope, god is there to motivate you to find your hope again. that's my opinion.

many people ask me why i have all the time to write on the blog. well, its because i am bored in perth, and it is also a record of how i felt. recently i mixed with more friends, rather than just 1 in the beginning. however, i really appreaciate the company of that friend. she was the one who was with me when i had ups and downs. i feel better now in perth comparing the time when i was new here.

to go home early or not to go. this is the question. i'll wait for the library's reply and if they reject my applicantion then i will just fly back. but seriously, i really would like to work in the library. seriously. i'm very serious.