you want me to put out that cigarette but why didn't you put out yours?

i guess i have too much feelings that i cannot express recently,

that makes me depress and pick up smoking, well, alone.

many of my friends know that i am an anti smoker,

i hate smokers until today.

cannot express my feelings as in?

oh, as in i can't really tell anyone close to me how i feel as people close to me knows that person well.

the person i can talk to, i guess doesn't have any interest in knowing what is going on.

so all i can do is keeping it to myself.

and every time i see scenes that hurts me i cannot control my tears.

one night i cried so bad while driving home,

i had to open the windows to let the wind dry my tears.

but my eyes hadn't been dried after i reached home.

i guess too much of these can really make a person get crazy.

therefore i decided to turn to taro cards.

i'll tell you what the taro has to say.

later when i am really to tell.