finally i found a job ,
i should be happy.
My dad said, thats good news,
but there is where your problem begins.
LOL
i'm happy and also unhappy.
excited , stepping out my first step to the real world, the society.
happy, i got the job which is a 5 days basis job, and met a bunch of old classmates.
unhappy, because life is so short that,
some people cant experience it all.
it is a good thing or a bad thing?
i lost my uncle,
lost 1 friend,
and going to lose the one i love.
then i told myself.
i have to really appreciate what i have in life.
because one day, they might just go off without saying goodbye.
life is short, live it to the fullest everyday.

我是世界第一等！



哈哈哈哈哈

想通了，
所以說，
一定要找個人談天，
再不會亂想啊。
哇哈哈哈哈。

我是五百@@
世界第一等

不要每天晚上流淚入睡，
每天早上眼睛紅腫！

但是情不自禁啊

你呆呆的
你想什麽
你認為他會懂嗎？
你只會給他更多壓力！

我知道。
但是， 還是情不自禁= =

笨蛋！
無言。

傻妞，
像他說的， 你知道了又能怎么樣，
又不是更痛， 傻妞啊傻妞。
有些事情， 不知道比知道更好啊。
他要修養啊， 不能像以前一樣了啊，
而且， 沒可能的東西， 你爲什麽陷入得那么深。
傻妞， 啊傻妞。 這場遊戲，
你最傻， 你最呆，
你最可愛了，
你可憐沒人愛了， 只有你傻傻愛著他。
你明白嗎。
好好做人啦傻妞，
你多想念他也沒有用啊
因為你們是不可能的。
沒有結果的東西， 何必付出那么多呢 。


唉， 傻妞， 醒醒吧~
別發夢了。








傻妞： 我真的不想醒， 我想一直陪著他。

日子很難過，
心總是很酸很痛，
何時會平復？
這幾天真的很痛苦。

長痛不如短痛，
謝謝你殺意哥。
短短的20天，真的感到很幸福。
謝謝你。

Rest In Peace Uncle Roger Yi Lee Kong,
October 13th, 2008.
We will miss you dearly.

noh morez.

公！ 嘻嘻

我也一样~XXXX
么么~
哈哈

分手后不可以做朋友,
因为彼此伤害过,
不可以做敌人,
因为彼此深爱过,
所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人...

aiyo yo
getting lazy , haha haven't touch my blog for quite long.
XD sorry lah~

nothing much happened, in Miri now, have to wake up early everyday to walk with my grandma,
as usual , cabal..... sdo......
thats all i guess, nothing special,
tata

what is love?
Is it i Like you, thats why we are together,
the you still don't know the real me,
so in the end when i get to know the real you,
i start to avoid you and hurt you because i dont like your real personality?
thats not love.
so fren i know the loneliness there, but i really dont agree wad you are doing right now.
however, i do hope that thats your true love.

华丽说：蛇，怎么离开你的仙人掌会？
我说： 什么仙人掌会啊？= =
华丽说：你的会的名字给人的感觉像仙人掌 = =
我说： 那我的名字像仙人掌咯？
华丽说：不，像 “天线杆，圈圈，圈圈，天线杆，天线杆，圈圈，圈圈，天线杆”然后一条蛇
我说： = =‘’‘’ 臭蜥蜴

TooTTooT佘=我的游戏名字

当我决定忘记你时 你既然又出现！
我好恨你哦！
你既然放弃了 你就别回来，别管那么多！

i am awake from my dreams~
it was a very romantic beautiful dream,
but when its a dream, its a dream.
dreams can hardly come true.
XD
Now, have to concentrate on planning my future!
がんばて～

你永远不懂有个人在远方为你流着眼泪。
那人真傻，
傻是傻在他想念着一个不会想念他的人。
悲剧。

i don't know what is my future going to be.@@
am i going to stay with my family?
work overseas or in malaysia?
perth frens, Kl frens....
frenz frenz frenz...
walao... fuck it la
enjoy for now,
slowly find job.
keke.
SDO-ing.
Seldom Cabal now,
maybe because all my cabal frenz left cabal. tats why its isn;t fun anymore.
=(
saded...

哎，桃花朵朵开
但是真是没有一个是真实的。

心动往往会变成心痛
是谁先喜欢上对方，
然后抛弃对方，
任何事情比对方先重要，
因为你曾告诉我，
你是个不会珍惜人的人。
我终于了解到，
不被你珍惜的人，真的好痛苦哦。
我又爱又恨你， 不懂为什么。
你说我弄得你不上不下，
现在到我不上不下了。
你说你常常压制你自己，
现在到我常常压制我自己了。
我好想哭哦。。但是我哭来干什么?
我为什么要伤心。。。。
你只是一个自私自利的人，重来不理会我感受。
我讨厌你！

ranked~

dunno whether you can see my name, but click it to enlarge, its TooTTooT佘, if you can find it, No.24!~
lol, thanks to 囡囡for helping me to reach 170~

and also thanks to ice's fren and ice for giving me this hp string~, eventhough she always threaten me by cutting it whenever i pisses she off.

and this is ice standing with me~ wakaka, i mean my character laaaa.
love you icee~ muacksz

what my name means..hmmmm

Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine

quite accurate,

lol, its been long since my last post.

sorry~ busy cabaling,

spend most of my time hooking on that game.

thanks to ice kwek.

lol.

had heaps of problems lately,

some are solved, some aren't.

have to make up my mind and do what i should do.

have face the fact that i need to start working,

i understand your feeling now jennifer lee!

lol, if you are reading this, i did enjoy this semester as you told me too.

i really miss you, and everyone!!

i've made up my mind to go back to malaysia for good, so i'll be seeing you guyz sooN!

i'll miss Ice Kwek by the way, i know she feels the same way too.

but friends come and go.

人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴月缺

you remember your favourite song?

加油! Ice Kwek!

am i in love?







































hmmmm........
































i dunno....


































maybe i am....










but sometimes i dont feel it......



















but most of the time...
i feel protected.....



















am i in love?















hmmmm...............






















dunnoo??^^

finally no strings attached.
i want to be single for a while.
even though i am used to be single since last year
but now i am officially "Single"

the point of changing my status to "in a relationahip"
is to let you know you cannot have hope for me anymore.
i am doing this for our own good.
you won't notice for now,
but in the future, you will.

i do love you, and i still love you.
but nothing last forever.
Last goodbye.
farewell.

i am one luckiest person ( i think)
comparing to those unlucky ones.
i am blessed.
i have food,
i have parent's love,
i have friend's love,
i can study abroad,
i have someone protecting me ~ ehe~
and, i appreciate all these things that you guys gave me.
that's why i am blessed.
i won't ask for more.
you guyz gave me everything i need.
thats why i love you guyz so muchi~
Muackzs~

i feel like throwing everything away,
go for a 60 days travel,
to anywhere i haven't been to,
and take pictures.
had been stressing myself lately.
with lots of responsibilities,
did a lot of thinking recently,
about my future,
what shud i do,
where shud i go,
shud i stay or not,
and all those wad if questions.
had been cabel-ing like crazy these few days.
quite stressful too. but in a good way think.
cabel makes me lazy.
hahaha.
i will quit one day.
once i get to bully people!~
wahahaha.

for so long,
tonight i feel protected..
omg~
my hero~
muakz~

i feel like shit today,
my room is messy and dirty,
and i am lazy to clean it.
i think i tolerate too much.
its time to be mean.
to be a biatch!
from now on, you step on my tail!
i'll use my tail to fark your asshole!
so don't play games with me!

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

some of my password are the combination of your name and mine.
maybe i shouldn't use that in the very beginning.
i don't know whether i am too lazy to change it,
or i just don't want to change it, because i am so used to it.
i have my own new password now, but everything when i type the password.
i'll still naturally type our combination one.
so my advice is never ever create a password that is a combination of someone else and your name.
i still think a lot about you,
its kinda hard to not think.
but i try to control myself and stop doing that.
you once told me i'll never find someone better than you,
maybe you are right.
i'm sorry,
i used to be very strong.
but i just broke down and cry today when i heard your favorite song "my december".
i miss home, i miss you, i miss everyone.
i miss our little game we used to play.
but all these have to go to the recycle bin.
including the song, "my december".
I've clicked empty recycle bin.
so long memories.
good bye.

i don't wanna talk about it.
just see for yourself.

Ouch! right?
yes. it really hurts.
but i had fun.
i paid 70$ for bruises.
Crazy People?
yes, indeed.

i think while producing a video,
editing is the hardest part.
some say piece of cake.
i say piece of shit.
but i will try my best to work things out.
make things right,
nothing is impossible!


I still think about the past a lot,
especially happy times with him.
its hard to forget something easily,
coz i'm not a cold hearted person.
but i try to not think too much.
and concentrate on what i am doing.
and cabal more.
to kill my time.

working in sunday,
with ROSS
which i hate the most,
but think about the money,
alright i'll go.
i've spend quite a lot this few weeks.
so its time to earn it back.
i hope my hands will still function when i come back from work.

k, gtg now.
i am a lazy bone..
i am ah se ah se ah se~

i am a lazy bone.
presented our short interview production today,
had a lot of good comments about it.
the lecturer loves it.
and i am proud of it.
Bravo~!
i seriously thought we didn't do a great job.
however it went very well.
cause we did have some problems like out of focus and stuff.
but with my editing skills! nothing is impossible!
wahaha~

but actually some comments are bullshit.
like " i like the style of this interview"
BULL SHIT!
lol.
seriously.
overall, we done well, and i hope we will do well in our mini corporate video as well!
keep it up visualize production!
Thumbs UP~

slept early last night.
woke up early today.
i had a very good night sleep.
i used to find it hard to wake up for early morning class.
but today i just woke up naturally.
it feels soooo good.
perth is starting to get cold.
have to wear more...
i hate wearing heaps of cloths.
have to wash more.
hehe.

finally daylight savings is over.
i gain back my one hour...
hmmm... wad should i do with that 1 more hour?
CABAL~?
no lah....
haha
maybe...
hehe~

cabal life recently

The day before yesterday
cabal
went to swim
cabal
cooked dinner
eat dinner
cabal
did a bit of assignment
cabal

Yesterday
woke up late because of cabaling last night
Pam called me at 8.30,
"poh chee, where are you"
"hey....erm... i'm on my way" still in bed with talent.(talent came to my house to sleep to avoid being late)
"yeah right, you're still in bed"
'hahaha... i'll be there soon"
"ok, no one is here yet"
"okok, see you soon i'll be there in no time!"
then me and ice rushed to school.
we did some planning yesteday night,
which is wake up at 7, take our showers,
then go early for breakfast at MC D(drive tru)
but then that of course never happened
did shooting from 8.30 till 4.00pm
cabal
dinner
cabal
Mambo night
cabal
sleep.

today
wake up
cabal
chat a bit
cabal



to be continued.....
lols

where is the easter bunny?
i can't find the eggs,
did the easter bunny took all the eggs~~

hehe.
happy easter.
no celebration.
Playing O2Jam all night.
but still failing like hell.
but will try harder.

my neck hurts.
i wish there is a massager here,
and will massage for me for free.
:'''''''
it reminds me of some happy moments,
that makes me sad.
anyways
quit thinking too much.
don't live in the past.
live is short! enjoy it!

going to play O2JAM again.
misss someoneeee..
hehe
wish can meet againnn
*fatt Haoooo


niitee nitee

Pretty People!

*Pretty People Yeah~

きらきらかがやく

そのえがおとわらいごえを

とどけPretty People~

Pretty People yeah~

きらきらかがやく

そのえがおとわらいごえを

ひびけ Pretty People~*

i love the chorus of this song call "Pretty People" by Monkey Majik.
Makes me happy while i'm listening to it.
it lightens up my day!
i feel that i am a free bird now.
thats a good start.
:)

がんばてね～
ahseさん

Sneezing Panda

this is sooooo cute.
i watched it like a hundred times!
and laugh out my lungs!
lol

ice and i discussed about being an agent of a company that sells contact lenses.
so we contacted the company and boom~
WE ARE AGENTS NOW.
i know its hard but we have to put more effort on it.
whenever there is a chance of earning money.
i will try my best to earn it!
all the best ICEE~

work!

work was like a tragedy today!
a tray of glasses just fell from my numb arms.
2X
TWICE!
then they send me back to the kitchen to polish and wash glasses.
only useless people polish glasses when other people are serving.
which is me.
but not just me.
another girl was like dat before.
well i think we have the same fate.
therefore i have to go to the gym more often.
to build up my stamina!
of course my arms are very soar right now.

ok thats the worst thing that happened today.
the best thing that happened today is.
that 徒弟仔 finally smiled and say goodbye to me, well of course he did say goodbye to everyone else.
but at least there is some improvement!
the chef asked me to chill and eat some of the spring rolls that the 徒弟仔 made,
but my arms were so freaking soar that i can't even lift up my hands to reach that spring roll.
so i rejected the chef's offer. and the chef said, "oh you should cry because she doesn't want to taste the spring rolls that you've made!"
then he went crying playfully.
ok thats all.
good night and going to gym to swim tmr!
i hope that i can swim 6 laps tmr.
but with my arms so soar i doubt.
but then i have to try!
anyways, good night!

its just so hot today!!!!!!!

my life is quite content at the moment.
i am blessed to have such a good company -miss ice.
i have movies to kill my boredom.
i have a group of good team mates!
but yet it seems that something is missing.
i still feel hollow beneath.
我的真名天子啊！你何时会出现啊？唉。。。

i bought a cardigan today,
however the stupid K-Mart cashier didn't take the magnet tag off my cardigan!
i am so pissed off because i can't take it out of my cardigan!
i feel like a theft.
but i bought this cardigan!
pissed offff!
i have to go back again to take it off!
which i have to do it on monday!
Ggrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

i always fucking miss the bus!
fuck!!!
i know its my problem,
because of laziness, and carelessness.
if i would have walked to the Vickery Bus stop everything would be fine,
even better, Curtin bus stop.
but no, this lazy bone wants to get on the bus in front of her house,
rather waiting then walking a stop further.
and every time i step out of the house,
i tend to forget this and that.
like the most important thing- smart rider
and - hand phone
therefore i can only get angry of myself.
and i am very angry of myself.

just today

just today,
i felt lonely,
just today,
i felt i am living in my own world.
just today,
i felt that no one cares anymore,
just today,
i felt not being loved anymore.
just today?
or is it forever?

ok, that post that i posted this morning was incredible.
while i was writing that post i was half awake.
then i went back to sleep.
and woke up at 1 pm.
incredible huh?
i was thinking why shud we live life so complicated?
i want a simple life.
so that i won't have so much to complaint,
and so much to worry about.
no stress.
but it seems living a simple life is harder than living a complicated life.
oh well.
i got my salary today as well.
thats why i am quite happy.
i have to maintain the the thousand figure.
therefore i have to work harder!
alright,
have to stop here
good nite.
going to have a meeting with our client tmr.
have to wake up early tmr.
sienz.

finally a cloudy day today,
it hasn't been cloudy ever since... October? November?
i forgot.
its been long i can tell you.
i don't know why did i wake up so early this morning.
with the weather like that i feel like going out.
cause the sun is hiding away from me,
and it won't burn me anymore!
the weather forecast says it will be raining and cloudy this 3 days.
hope it stays this way. =)

isn't it great?
i am really happy for her.
i wish i had something like dat too.
but the fact is,
i'm not pretty enough,
i am not perfect enough,

nevermind!
i am still waiting for the right time to come,
waiting for the right time, right place, with the right person.
i just need to wait.

i have to think of a title again.

because of a fren,
who thinks that my blog's template is complicated,
therefore i need to use this dull black template.
see i love you so much.
i sacrifice!
and you... you said i am your "last time" fren.
hurt my heart...
:''''''(
lol.
well at last you get leave the comment below.
satisfy????

never ever mention about tonight.
cause i think its my problem.
cause i am not socialized enough.
thats why i didn't had fun.
it seems i ruined my night.
oh well,
who cares,
early class tmr.
fucked up class,
why?
cause i have to do all the talking.
which i dun even like to do so.
maybe its time i train myself to speak up in the public.
and build up my confidence.
my confidence score is?
hmm.. 40%?
i dunoo.

learning how to play a piano was one of my dreams.
today my house mate taught me how to play a piano.
because i have some music background,
i could catch up quite fast.
however, learning how to play piano isn't just a day or two thing,
you need to practice, as practice makes perfect.
therefore i will go to her room,
daily to disturb her and play her piano,
and force myself to learn how to play a whole song out!
thank you hommie!

i love muffins, yum yum!
i wanted muffins badly few days ago.
and it was mid night when i wanted to have muffins.
so where the hell can i get them?
so i waited patiently,
till the next day afternoon,
i walked to IGA under the hot sun,
with an umbrella, (ella, ella, eh eh eh)
under my umbrella (ella, ella,eh, eh eh)
hehe, thought of singing it.
anyways, back to my story.
sweating like hell,
when i reached the bread section,
i saw the last box of double chocolate chips muffins!
i quickly grabbed it and ran to the cashier and paid for it!
and ran back under the hot sun
under my umbrella (ella,ella eh, eh, eh)
under my umbrella ella,ella,*********STOP IT!********...okok!
reached home, rush up to my room and microwaved the double chips chocolate muffins,
and slowly enjoy my muffin.
mmm.... D E LI CIOUS!
eventhough its 4.35 dollars for 4 muffins,
but mmmm.... D E LI CIOUS!
and my umbrella ******NO MORE SINGING UMBRELLA!!!!!!!!!!****
okok! fine! no more umbrella.
under my umbrella, ella!!!!!!!!!!!
wahhaha!

*******%^$%@#^!%^^&%*&%

wad?

the tale of my tofu arms.
yesterday, my tofu arms were sore.
today, my tofu arms are (mind my language) FUCKING sore.
i find it hard to lift my arms up to wash my face!
well, perhaps after a few more intensive arms training.
they'll be fine and strong again!
good night everyone.
i am fucking tired tonight.
nighty night.

first day of work ever since i came back,
how was it?

i broke 1 white wine glass,
1 empty bottle of carlton draught beer.
i was running away from the chef.
trying not to have as much eye contact as possible,
and talk less to him.
cause he is a very emotional person.
his temper changes like thunder.
his little assistant is either hongkie, malaysian, or singaporean.
but he doesn't talk to me or anyone.
just like me! not doing alot of talking,
but working really hard.
i just listen to orders,
and do my job.
really tired today,
made a few mistakes,
but had fun working as something funny happened,
don't wanna talk about it, very embarrassing.
people are nice, as they forgive a lot.
and of course understand that i am still a newbie.
so call, noob!
or n00b!
wadever language that is.
and the most important thing is,
my bank account isn't just flowing.
at least i have income.
but i if work harder.
the figure of my income will be bigger.
and hopefully i can save up to pay my rent.
so mummy don't have to work so hard,
and can buy more stuff for herself.
it seems that she haven't pampered herself for quite sometime.
because she have to save up to pay for my studies and stuff.
23 years old still using parents money is actually consider quite useless.
people my age are earning already.
but i am still studying, using parents money.
spoilt brat.


alright. time to rest. another day to earn money tomorrow.
tired today, rich tomorrow.
muakz, nitie nite.

and here i go...
heee~lllllllllllllooooooooo~

i shited 3 times today.
too much information right?
i feel like going to toilet again.
but i feel like blogging!
i wish i am a multi-tasker!
i will be one soon!
thats the dream that i have to come true!
love ya'll~~~~~~~~~~~~~

flu flu,
go away,
never come again ok?
flu flu,
go away,
little ah se wants to play.

the original lyrics is,
rain, rain,
go away,
come again another day,
rain rain,
go away,

little ____ wanna play.

hey hey its me YO YO YO!
sigh....

the yo thingy isn't working.
i'm still boring.
the weather is beautiful here,
however the only missing thing is my partner,
my evening walk partner,
and my IGA supermarket partner.

i wonder why people like to torture themselves,
by using drugs, and alcohol.
and wasting money by going clubbing,
listening to loud music that makes you too deaf to talk in the club.
maybe i am not that kinda type of person who knows how to appreciate these kinda stuff.
my philosophy is,
1. no drugs,
2. no alcohol,
3. no smoking,
4. no clubbing
:)

i miss my country soooooou much!
i can feel the emptiness of perth after you guys left.
its like, i feel like doing this activity but you are not here to do it with me.
just like making sushi.
my sushi cutter isn't here anymore.
i had to cut it myself.


oh well, wad comes around goes around.
i hope that i could find a group of new friends here again.
i remember my ex-housemate told me to find new friends and be more socialize the day before i left perth.
i will try my best.
don't worry.
take care.
hugzz
xxx...
and good night.

obviously i am not willing to go back,
but i have to,
anyways,
i am a positive thinker,
i think on the bright side.
so the bright side in perth is,
i get to gain knowledge, (or not)
i am going to graduate soon,
the weather is cool there,
i have a bigger room with bathroom attached,
i have more freedom there,
and hmm... friends,
actually come to think of it,
i do actually have friends there now.
just not best friends,
once a friend told me, "a best friend is better than 10 normal friends"

which is totally true,
a best friend can company wherever you go,
share the same interest,
talk all day long, knowing that they are talking crap but still go on and on,
have the same fashion sense,
can gossip around,
criticize people, objects and situations.
share any sorrows and happiness,
and of course scold you whenever you do anything wrong,
because she wants you to be a better person,
and also help you without ever thinking why shud i help you,
people talk bad about you she will defend for you,
and most of all,
ask "what do you wanna eat tonight" everyday
force you to make a decision wads for dinner.
cook together,
laughs together,
cries together,
criticizes together,
gossip together,
sleep together,
crap together.
worry together,
have fun together....
etc, etc


while normal fren,
will you know wad normal frens are.
i'm lazy to discribe normal frens.

will, good night and good bye malaysia,
see you again next year,
or the end of the year.
Muakz,
bye bye my best friends,
hope to see you soon!

eling,
canney,
jennifer,
elise!

love you all!

Came Back from Miri today,
Had to come back to the dirty and hazy KL.
oh well, 7 more days to go,
and i have to go back to perth,
lonely perth,
don;t feel like going back there,
feel like staying in Miri forever.
what to do, what to do...
you chose this way, you walk this direction.
no turning back.
or else you will get killed.

i saw an old old man who fell down and hurt his face and arm,
i felt useless and helpless and i couldn't do anything.
but what i realized is that,
they are still quite a lot of kind and helpful people and this world,
many came to help that old man.
poor old man, i hope he is ok now.
god bless that old man,
and god bless everyone in this world.

我要
忍！忍！忍！忍！忍！
忍忍忍忍忍。

这样就会
和气生财

CNY is just around the corner,
of all festival i love CNy the most.
why?
because all my relatives will come back for family reunion,
and those who came back from far countries like Canada or england,
you'll get lots of presents from them,
for instants, my aunt bought loads of cloths for me in Canada,
she even bought winter clothing for me!
how thoughtful of her!
and there will be funny stories to talk about,
like who did what and it was so funny,
of course there will be someone there for you to bully,
like my cousin brother, my "koko".
and also there's little devil cousins who plays gameboy all day,
and you'll think that they are shy quiet kid,
but the fact is when their mother "mortgage" their gameboys,
they are like demons, like evil devils that came from hell!
and then there will be relatives that will ask "yearly" questions like -:

1. Pou, got boyfriend or not?
2. Pou when are you graduating?
3. Pou are you working now?
4. Pou when are you going to belanja us?
5. Pou you got bring enough money to gamble this year or not?

and there are questions asked by a mean cousin every time he sees me, -:

1. Pou, you still like satay or not ( there is a story behind this satay)

every time we pass by the sea side near my grandmother's house,
he'll sure bring out this joke!
for almost 15year!
i find the joke not funny anymore.
but he still thinks its funny after 15 years.

anyways,
there are also people who dislike CNY,
like my ex-house mate who think CNY is just CNY,
nothing special.
and for those who travels during CNY,
thats not about CNY!
CNY is a reunion festival!
some people just don't appreciate family reunion.
of course, those people that don';t appreciate always have a story behind.


had my first time ever threading eye brow today,
pain like hell!!!!!
but of course ends up very nice,
they say i look more....
more... wads that word...
more... pretty, yes pretty.
ha ha.

ok, not to talk about politics in Malaysia but!
i think those politicians are stupid.
especially the lingam case.
they are those who made Malaysia's reputation "glory"!
what a joke.

anyways, back to my topic.
yes, more and more people are arriving,
tmr my parents and sister will be arriving,
friday my stupid cousin will be arriving,
ben will be arriving later,
my uncle will be arriving on the day of reunion dinner,
my aunt from canada arrived yesterday.
wow, the house will be very merry soon!

have to sleep now.
In Miri, I have to wake up very early.
so good nite and sleep tight.
some times i just to blog crap.
so don;t take things to seriously.
as i am not a serious person.
wahahaha,
see see the crapping is starting,
i think its a disease. or a kind of sickness.
blah. who cares.

please forgive me,
but i'll follow what my heart says,

we had good memories,
i really loved you,

but i have to let go of you,
cause we are from a different world,

goodbye and take care,
i'll miss you.

to me,
life is like traveling on the road,
once you are born, you start traveling on narrow roads,
as you grow bigger, you road gets wider,
of course there will be potholes, accidents, and etc on that road,
but you still have to move on,
the only way to not let you move on is when you gave up traveling anymore,
that is the day you die.

its a long journey,
so have a pleasant journey.
make accidents as your lessons,
make potholes as your difficulties,
and repair it as soon as possible,
if you have problem repairing it,
ask for someone's help,
someone's advice might help you,
better than you standing alone there helplessly.

there's been loads of problem lately,
i wish i could solve it,
but most of them are not my problems,
its my close family and friend's problems.
all i can do is to make them happy.

but one of my friend makes me feel like she is locking herself in her room.
not opening the door to come out.
i feel sad to see her like that.
she is not as happy as she is before.
i tried to comfort her,
but i think things just get worst.
by reading her blog i feel really sad.

but i think time will heal her,
its just a matter of time, how long?
i guess, quite long.

message to her is,
" don't give up Taman Negara just because of one papaya tree,
there are still a lot of trees which need and loves you a lot,
maybe now you can't see those trees, because the only thing you can see is that spot where that papaya tree used to be there. i know it needs time to grows some grass and cover that spot. the only thing i pray is to make those grass grow faster, so that they can cover that spot as soon as possible, so that the orange tree will bear fruits and enjoy life again."

another thing is that,
i think people usually write blogs when they are really down,
but they won;t write when they are happy.
treat your blog equally,
when you are sad, blog it,
when you are happy blog it,
when you have thoughts, blog it,
when you had fun, blog it.

good night ah se.
sleep tight everybody

-John P. Kretzmann & John L. McKnight-

Every single person has capabilities, abilities and gifts.

Living a good life depends on whether those capabilities can be used,

abilities expressed and gifts given. If they are, the person will be valued,

feel powerful and well-connected to the people around them.

And the community around the person will be more powerful

because of the contribution the person is making.

i believe everyone had experienced this feeling before,
that is when you are very tired,
until a period you will get high for a while,
and then get grumpy the whole day.

i was so high that i kept singing in the night market,
and i couldn't be bothered how people stared at me,
i just kept singing and singing and singing while walking,
then suddenly i realized,
OMG, my dad used to do that too!
and my attitude is getting more similar as dad!
and then after a period of time,
i got grumpy,
when my mum ask me "want to eat apple or not"
i just shake my head,
and i started scolding "faster laaaah! Everything dun wan lah".
haha, but my mum din diu kao me,
she still slowly shop, and keep asking me want this or not, want that or not?
haihh, i gave up responding her, and just stand aside and look at those pirated CD/VCD sellers.

my grandma's eyes are getting worst and worst,
her eye sight is so blur that her can't see who is who,
so she will differentiate everyone by our voices,
and her main entertainment is listening to the radio,
cause she can't watch TV anymore.

eventhough grandma's eye sight is not that good,
but her spirit is still very strong!

The harder the conflict,

the more glorious the triumph.

What we obtain too cheap,

we esteem too lightly;

it is dearness only that gives everything its value.

I love the man that can smile in trouble,

that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection.

'Tis the business of little minds to shrink;

but he whose heart is firm,

and whose conscience approves his conduct,

will pursue his principles unto death.

- M. Scott Peck

today i am suppose to go out "yamcha" with my high school classmates,
but most of them are those i don't hang out much with in high school,
so i decided to tell a big fat lie and cancel the "yamcha" with them.

i feel guilty for lying, but then i really don;t feeling like meeting those people cause:

1. It's hard to join their conversation cause all they talk about is work.
2. their stupid mouth, very poison.
3. i don't feel like meeting the people that i don't feel like meeting.

i think thats the 3 main point.

i hope they dont read this.
if you guys do.
i'm really sorry.
sincerely.

this is my elementary best mate,
14 years friendship.
in between these 14 years,
we lost contact for 4 years,
so i guess its 10 years.

its very rare to have a fren contacting you for 10 years,
well we don't always get to meet each other,
just once in a while,
but we manage to maintain our friendship for so long,

people used to think we were twins,
haha, now i guess no one thinks we are twins anymore,
the best part is, if we are together, people might think that we are sisters,
aand i'm always the younger one! hahaha!

have to go now,
write soon,
maybe.
haha, what a random person!

Chinese New Year is coming soon!

i, myself love chinese new year the most,
that's the time i can meet all my relatives,
and gossip on the gambling table, lol.
and talk about the old times, how we used to be,
and how things changed.

i think CNY is all about reunion,
not just CNY, every festive season is a time for family reunion,
just like my family,
everyone is busy at work, for a living.
that's why i'm always home alone,
one of my friend once said to me,
" i really admire you for being so independent".
i just nodded and smile,
but little they know about me,
i was raise to be independent,
when i was young,
i'm always home alone,
i have to find ways to not be boring,
parents are always not at home,
siblings are always out,
that's why i guess friends are so important to me,
to me, friends and family comes first,
today i'll be meeting my old friends,
so excited.

If you as parents cut corners,

your children will too. If you lie, they will too.

If you spend all your money on yourselves and tithe no portion of it for charities,

colleges, churches, synagogues, and civic causes,

your children won't either.

And if parents snicker at racial and gender jokes,

another generation will pass on the poison adults still have not had the courage to snuff out.

You have been my friend.

That in itself is a tremendous think.

I wove my webs for you because I liked you.

After all, what's a life, anyway?

We're born, we live a little while, we die.

A spider's life can't help being something of a mess,

with all this trapping and eating flies.

By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle.

Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that.

Charlotte, "Charlotte's Web"

- E.B White.

it seems like when someone is gone,
they will be missed,
that is, when they are gone.
why can't appreciate the appearance of someone when they are still by your side?
so that we don't regret, when they are gone?
i guess human beings are like that,
i don't want to repeat my mistakes again.

i'll appreciate everyone's appearance.

would you like to read a article who of words,

or break it up into paragraphs?

i personally like reading articles broken into paragraphs,

they don't make my eyes soar and tired,
and wasting all the time to find where was i reading.

anyways,

i don't miss perth,
but i miss my frenz there,

but it seems when i come back to malaysia,
all my frenz are so busy,
not wad i expected though.
but i'll do my best to contact and meet them.
i promise.

Home Sweet Home

even though malaysia is not as clean as it is in perth,
the weather is not as cool it is,
the air is not as fresh as it is in perth,
but it feels good to be back,
because this is where i'm from!

when the captain announced,
"selamat pulang ke tanah air!"
my heart said " yeah baby yeah!"
i love malaysia.
so good to be home.

had no internet for the pass 2 days.
how do i feel?
bored. of course.
but i had a good night sleep though.
i slept from 11pm to 12.30pm the next day.

i kept myself busy these few days.
so that i won't feel bored.

feel a bit sad,
when i heard that my friends went travelling.
cause i cannot go with them!
*sob sob

we used to be a gang,
and everywhere we went,
we went together.

thats all for now.
take care. see you soon in KL
bye bye
love you
miss you
watver
tata
ciaoz

我很喜欢这首歌，
我以前就很喜欢这首歌，
我以后也会很喜欢这首歌，
因为，这是一首我喜欢的歌。

就想，
我很喜欢这个人，
我以前就很喜欢这个人，
我以后也会很喜欢这个人，
因为，这是一个我喜欢的人。

in conclusion!
私はこの歌を好む.
私は好むも.

有一个人，
他拥有一间很漂亮，很豪华的房子，
一辆很豪华的车，
他很有钱，什么都不缺。
他很忙，忙着赚钱。
什么事情都没时间，
但是，
他想要什么，就有什么。
人人都很羡慕他，
但是，他还是觉得很空虚，
很孤单，很寂寞，很不快乐。
很多时候，他都没时间陪家人和朋友，
所以才会寂寞难过。
但他有个想法，就是赚钱最重要。


另外一个人，
他什么都没拥有，
没有漂亮的房子，
没有人羡慕，
也没有很有钱，
但是他很多时间，
他生活过得很充实，很快乐。
他把时间都花在陪家人和朋友，
因为他有个想法就是，亲情和友情最重要。

我呢，
我要把这两个人结合在一起。
把那个人变成我。
你说，有可能吗？

another 1 week to go,
thats 7 days,
thats 168 hours,
10080 minutes,
604,800 second to go!

can't wait to go home!
to see all my friends and family!
and pick a new dog from spca!
and eat tom yam, and yu tao mei!
and have korean food! yum yum!
of course, the must not missed nasi lemak,
and chicken rice!!! wuuuhooooooooooo!

i download a few chinese new year songs to listen just to make myself more happy,
sitting alone in a room with stupid sad music doesn't help at all,
when i hear those cny songs, it reminds me of family reunion, good food, funny stories, love, and last but not least! gambling! hehe
you can't imagine how much i miss them,

i finished my bacon scarf yesterday as well,
here, take a look.
a big bacon on my neck. LOL.
the bacon scarf!

starting a new scarf so that i have more varieties to wear during winter.
teehee, like i am going to wear them!
of course i am going to wear them!
it took months to finish them!

have to wait until 4.am to start downloading.
cant TPG treat their customers better and change and off peak time to 2.am to 9.am.
anyways, i am happy to have broadband when i come back from KL.
cause i can talk to my family and friends more on skype!
good night everyone.
7 days remaining!

couldn't sleep, so i "flip" through my phone's pictures that i took.
then i start missing jennifer,
and canney,
and eling, and spud,
and my family.

i just hate being alone at night missing you guys.
when i look through my pictures in my phone,
i remember the good times we had together,
like i had korean dinner with canney and eling,
then we went to KLCC for window shopping,
and eling wasn;t feeling well,
then they walked me to the train station,
and i hugged them and cry.
cause i will miss them a lot.


and then there's a video about eling getting very angry for some reason,
and jennifer juggling the tennis balls,
and jennifer and i went to the river side and start taking stupid pictures,
and i secretly took pictures of spud (the overweight dog) sleeping,
but as i walked nearer he noticed me and sit up.
then when i walked nearer to him, he came nearer to me,
just to let me pet him,
then i shouted, "Spud! Sit down!"
then he sat down, "good boyly".
i invented that one.
haha

those are the good times.
very bored these few days,
luckily i had elise's company last night.
or i'll be sleeping all alone again.

well, now at least one of the housemate is back.
so i wont be so scared.

and then soon i won't be seeing elise again,
i will miss her company too.
i will miss everyones company!

happy new year everyone....
i know i know, its the third time i said happy new year.
anyways, i just wanna say something here..

for those who loved me dearly in 2007, i "thank kiu you very the much".
for those who hated me in 2007, i also "thank kiu you very the much too".

if i did anything bad that made you guys pissed, and angry,
i'm sorry for what i did, from the bottom of my heart.
its a new year, and i hope i can be a better and useful person.
lots of hopes for this year 2008.
and 2008 is an important year for me, as i will graduate this year.
i will step out to the society this year,
i won't be studying anymore, which i will miss the most cause i had studied for 22 years!
(ok, minus 5 years)

lastly, i really wanna thankkiu you guys very much for giving me a wonderful year 2007,
and i look forward for year 2008!
happy new year 2008 guys!
all the best! take care! and have a wonderful 2008!