CNY is just around the corner,
of all festival i love CNy the most.
why?
because all my relatives will come back for family reunion,
and those who came back from far countries like Canada or england,
you'll get lots of presents from them,
for instants, my aunt bought loads of cloths for me in Canada,
she even bought winter clothing for me!
how thoughtful of her!
and there will be funny stories to talk about,
like who did what and it was so funny,
of course there will be someone there for you to bully,
like my cousin brother, my "koko".
and also there's little devil cousins who plays gameboy all day,
and you'll think that they are shy quiet kid,
but the fact is when their mother "mortgage" their gameboys,
they are like demons, like evil devils that came from hell!
and then there will be relatives that will ask "yearly" questions like -:

1. Pou, got boyfriend or not?
2. Pou when are you graduating?
3. Pou are you working now?
4. Pou when are you going to belanja us?
5. Pou you got bring enough money to gamble this year or not?

and there are questions asked by a mean cousin every time he sees me, -:

1. Pou, you still like satay or not ( there is a story behind this satay)

every time we pass by the sea side near my grandmother's house,
he'll sure bring out this joke!
for almost 15year!
i find the joke not funny anymore.
but he still thinks its funny after 15 years.

anyways,
there are also people who dislike CNY,
like my ex-house mate who think CNY is just CNY,
nothing special.
and for those who travels during CNY,
thats not about CNY!
CNY is a reunion festival!
some people just don't appreciate family reunion.
of course, those people that don';t appreciate always have a story behind.


had my first time ever threading eye brow today,
pain like hell!!!!!
but of course ends up very nice,
they say i look more....
more... wads that word...
more... pretty, yes pretty.
ha ha.

ok, not to talk about politics in Malaysia but!
i think those politicians are stupid.
especially the lingam case.
they are those who made Malaysia's reputation "glory"!
what a joke.

anyways, back to my topic.
yes, more and more people are arriving,
tmr my parents and sister will be arriving,
friday my stupid cousin will be arriving,
ben will be arriving later,
my uncle will be arriving on the day of reunion dinner,
my aunt from canada arrived yesterday.
wow, the house will be very merry soon!

have to sleep now.
In Miri, I have to wake up very early.
so good nite and sleep tight.
some times i just to blog crap.
so don;t take things to seriously.
as i am not a serious person.
wahahaha,
see see the crapping is starting,
i think its a disease. or a kind of sickness.
blah. who cares.

please forgive me,
but i'll follow what my heart says,

we had good memories,
i really loved you,

but i have to let go of you,
cause we are from a different world,

goodbye and take care,
i'll miss you.

to me,
life is like traveling on the road,
once you are born, you start traveling on narrow roads,
as you grow bigger, you road gets wider,
of course there will be potholes, accidents, and etc on that road,
but you still have to move on,
the only way to not let you move on is when you gave up traveling anymore,
that is the day you die.

its a long journey,
so have a pleasant journey.
make accidents as your lessons,
make potholes as your difficulties,
and repair it as soon as possible,
if you have problem repairing it,
ask for someone's help,
someone's advice might help you,
better than you standing alone there helplessly.

there's been loads of problem lately,
i wish i could solve it,
but most of them are not my problems,
its my close family and friend's problems.
all i can do is to make them happy.

but one of my friend makes me feel like she is locking herself in her room.
not opening the door to come out.
i feel sad to see her like that.
she is not as happy as she is before.
i tried to comfort her,
but i think things just get worst.
by reading her blog i feel really sad.

but i think time will heal her,
its just a matter of time, how long?
i guess, quite long.

message to her is,
" don't give up Taman Negara just because of one papaya tree,
there are still a lot of trees which need and loves you a lot,
maybe now you can't see those trees, because the only thing you can see is that spot where that papaya tree used to be there. i know it needs time to grows some grass and cover that spot. the only thing i pray is to make those grass grow faster, so that they can cover that spot as soon as possible, so that the orange tree will bear fruits and enjoy life again."

another thing is that,
i think people usually write blogs when they are really down,
but they won;t write when they are happy.
treat your blog equally,
when you are sad, blog it,
when you are happy blog it,
when you have thoughts, blog it,
when you had fun, blog it.

good night ah se.
sleep tight everybody

-John P. Kretzmann & John L. McKnight-

Every single person has capabilities, abilities and gifts.

Living a good life depends on whether those capabilities can be used,

abilities expressed and gifts given. If they are, the person will be valued,

feel powerful and well-connected to the people around them.

And the community around the person will be more powerful

because of the contribution the person is making.

i believe everyone had experienced this feeling before,
that is when you are very tired,
until a period you will get high for a while,
and then get grumpy the whole day.

i was so high that i kept singing in the night market,
and i couldn't be bothered how people stared at me,
i just kept singing and singing and singing while walking,
then suddenly i realized,
OMG, my dad used to do that too!
and my attitude is getting more similar as dad!
and then after a period of time,
i got grumpy,
when my mum ask me "want to eat apple or not"
i just shake my head,
and i started scolding "faster laaaah! Everything dun wan lah".
haha, but my mum din diu kao me,
she still slowly shop, and keep asking me want this or not, want that or not?
haihh, i gave up responding her, and just stand aside and look at those pirated CD/VCD sellers.

my grandma's eyes are getting worst and worst,
her eye sight is so blur that her can't see who is who,
so she will differentiate everyone by our voices,
and her main entertainment is listening to the radio,
cause she can't watch TV anymore.

eventhough grandma's eye sight is not that good,
but her spirit is still very strong!

The harder the conflict,

the more glorious the triumph.

What we obtain too cheap,

we esteem too lightly;

it is dearness only that gives everything its value.

I love the man that can smile in trouble,

that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection.

'Tis the business of little minds to shrink;

but he whose heart is firm,

and whose conscience approves his conduct,

will pursue his principles unto death.

- M. Scott Peck

today i am suppose to go out "yamcha" with my high school classmates,
but most of them are those i don't hang out much with in high school,
so i decided to tell a big fat lie and cancel the "yamcha" with them.

i feel guilty for lying, but then i really don;t feeling like meeting those people cause:

1. It's hard to join their conversation cause all they talk about is work.
2. their stupid mouth, very poison.
3. i don't feel like meeting the people that i don't feel like meeting.

i think thats the 3 main point.

i hope they dont read this.
if you guys do.
i'm really sorry.
sincerely.